Word of the Day: Embetter

May 16, 2013 § 16 Comments

We’ve been given the gift of a mother who, quietly and by example, has taught us to face challenges with hope, courage, and joy. Joy isn’t necessarily happiness, though often the two go hand in hand. Its more of an inner strength, perspective, and trust. Its a condition of the heart that is quick to be thankful and quick to forgive. Not to say that you do not have tears, or suffering, or anger, or overwhelming thoughts of hopelessness, but, rather, to say that you do not stay there. As our family faces this most current struggle with our mom’s cancer, we have once again been reminded that there is a crossroad and a choice.

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In my journey to understand my own pains, I’ve come to understand joy more and more….so I wrote a little jig.  It applies to any struggle in life.

Judy’s Joy

Joy is the good you choose to see…when the bad is most evident.

Its choosing to be thankful…when the wrongs are ever present.

Its knowing something can be gained…from a difficult circumstance.

An opportunity for hope…when hope is given a chance.

As the flames of pain surround you…there’s a cleansing taking place.

A fire refining the soul…revealing an amazing grace.

Its not what you had planned. You plead it to go away.

“This is not my story. Not my story.” Over and over you say.

Blame and anger beg to take root, but a greater gift awaits

For the one who stands with courage…looking for His face.

Its a search for the road less traveled. A search to listen and to find

God agreeing and gently saying, “No. This is not your story. Its mine.”

When I try to make sense of the heartaches in life, I just can’t. A life lost too soon, cancer, disease, betrayal, infertility, poverty, abandonment, disaster, abuse….All of these and more squeeze questions from our inner most soul. The how’s and the why’s consume our minds, but what about the could’s and the will’s?

Could this be a trial we are facing that will form us into someone we would not have been otherwise? Will we let it break us to a point where we are stripped of a pride that hinders us from trusting in a bigger story? Will we fight the change or will we allow ourselves to be molded and formed, for the better, by the hands of life? Could the fires we survive, the fires meant to destroy us, actually be the exact picture of redemption someone else later looks to for encouragement in their own, similar battle?

With pain, comes choice. Let it embitter you or let it embetter you.

[embetter (verb) to make better]

Grieve your loss. Yes.

Then, search wholeheartedly for your gain.

Here’s to a “beauty from ashes” story. No matter what you are facing. Its there somewhere waiting to be found.

Cristi

Joy

A forever reminder of the truth that while we may not get to choose the things that happen to us in life, we do get to choose how we will respond to them. A tribute, stenciled in her handwriting, to the person who continues to choose joy….our mom.

We would love to hear from you….what are you choosing?

A Thousand Miles, a Sad Mess and a Pecan Pie

December 3, 2012 § 2 Comments

“I could never love anyone more than I love my sisters”. Name that movie. (okay, its a book too)  Little Women. Amy and I watched it years ago and have been quoting it to each other ever since.  How deep is a sister’s love? Deep enough to drive cross country with multiple young children.  Yes. Twice. Did I say twice? Oh yeah, I did. Well, maybe I drove there for Amy and maybe I drove there for the most delectable pecan pie I’ve ever had….and I am not a pecan pie person. I am apple pie all the way…..but we’ll get to that later.

She lived in a postcard town in North Carolina. So cute.  An old, classic Victorian, yellow house, with an American flag on the wrap around front porch, is where they called home. The street was lined with such houses, all different colors, all old, with lush landscaping.

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If you walked out the front door and turned right you’d run in to horse stables down the road, surrounded by colossal pine trees and picturesque riding trails.  Just being there, you wanted to own a pair of riding boots. On the other hand, if you turned left, you’d run in to a downtown main street straight out of a small town movie set.  Train tracks, with a tiny train station, an ice cream parlor, a yoga studio, a movie theatre, a library, a park and dozens of charming shops and restaurants. Gorgeous, vintage red brick…everywhere.  There is a particularly preferred store called The Mockingbird and a particularly appetizing restaurant called Chef Warren’s.  Warren happened to also be Amy’s neighbor. He and his wife raised chickens and an organic garden whose crops he featured on their menu at times.  Fresh food, french pressed coffee, and hands down the finest pecan pie. Ever. But, again, we’ll get to that later.

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My last trip to the Carolina’s, we took our trusty black Suburban. This car has been with us since we became a two child family and carried us everywhere tried and true. “Old faithful”.

We rolled up to the sweet yellow house in Southern Pines, unloaded and fell fast asleep.  Old Faithful had done it again.  Road trip success. Check.

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The next morning, we awoke to towering pines and a quaint town.  We started up “Old Faithful” only to hear a dreadful screeching noise coming from under the hood.  Whaaaattt??? “It’s probably just a fan belt,” I thought to myself. “Yeah, definitely a fan belt.”

I drove my screaming car to the parking lot of the cute repair shop, also on Main Street.  I waited for their inspection of the fan belt. Time passes and Mr. Car Guy looks at me, looks at my car, squints his eyes, and proceeds to ask me ,”Do you happen to be in the market for a new car?”  I nearly choke and sputter back to him, “What are you trying to say?”

“Well, it seems you need a new a engine?” he says.

“Old faithful!!” I think to myself. “Why have you forsaken me?”

I breathe deep, wish my husband was standing here handling this situation, wish it was just a fan belt, and then consider this one of those character refining moments as I reflect on the circumstance.

Hmmmmm. New engines, those can’t be cheap. I mean that’s the main part of a car, right? And my husband is in Austin. I’m not going to buy a car here without my him. “Well, I guess we got to get it working.”

Mr. Car Guy states, “Oh wait , ma’am , we can’t fix it here. You have to be able to drop the engine. We can’t drop the engine.”

Long story short. (or short story long) We end up towing “Old Faithful” a couple towns over where we buy a used engine. Just as I suspected, not cheap. Our stay with with Amy (or Bebe, as my kids call her) goes from one week to three weeks as we wait for the engine overhaul.  We make crepes every other day and eat Warren’s amazing pecan pie.

Towards the end of our stay, Amy and her husband leave town for a wedding. That same evening a huge storm rolls in to Southern Pines. Lightning, thunder, wind…the whole deal. The baby starts throwing up at midnight. Nice. I am thinking he is having a terrible reaction to some bites he got on his face earlier in the day. I have no car. I am in a strange town. My sister is gone. My husband is gone. These are good times.(insert sarcasm)

I speak to one of our best friends back home who’s a family doctor.  After several questions, his diagnosis is that it is just a stomach bug unrelated to the bites. Whew. I’m relieved. Kind of.  In the meantime, there is still throw up. Oooohhhh how I love throw up. Wait, no I don’t. But, still, here I am covered in it. Its a sad mess really. Midol take me away.

Then, in the middle of giving the little guy a late night bath, the power goes out. …The power to a hundred year old house….. A house that belongs to my sister…..A sister that is not there.

I am solo and am sure a breaker tripped. It’s pitch black and my mind (not my body) wanders to the breaker box.  The breaker box that is under the house….In the basement. The basement you enter through a secret door that lifts up out of the floor. Repeat, out of the floor. The secret door that my sister will not even go down by herself. Being that the house is in North Carolina and one hundred plus years old, it potentially was some sort of hidden room that was part of the underground railroad. But that’s just my wild imagination. Who knows?

I am NOT going down there at two in the morning in the middle of a thunderstorm. No way. I’d rather sleep with the power off. Which I do.

Fast forward. Baby ceases to puke. The sun comes up. Power lights up. Sister comes home. Husband shows up. (love him) Car is fixed. (love it) Everything is back as it should be.

“Old Faithful” is on the road again. When it’s all said and done, I am thinking two things.  “I am not doing this trip again for a looonnnng time.” (sorry sister) and “Thank goodness I got some of Chef Warren’s pecan pie.”

And yes, I will share his recipe. He does so on his website and we made it this past Thanksgiving. Then we devoured it and thought happy thoughts.

Chef Warren’s Pecan Pie

This is their most requested recipe.

Yields two 9″ pies. Any extra filling can be refrigerated for up to one month.

Preheat oven to 275 degrees

4 ounces unsalted butter

8 ounces unbleached flour

2 pounds light brown sugar

12 eggs

4 cups of Karo syrup

1 tablespoon of vanilla extract

1 teaspoon of salt

3 cups of pecan pieces

1 cup of pecan halves

2 pie shells – par baked at 400 degrees for 10 minutes

Cream together the flour and the butter. Add the light brown sugar and then beat in eggs, two at a time. Add Karo syrup, vanilla, and salt. Mix in one and a half cups of pecan pieces per pie. Fill the shell and then top it off with half a cup of pecan halves. Place in the oven on a cookie sheet at 275 for approximately 2 hours or until set. He recommends letting it sit overnight in the refrigerator and serving it the next day. The pie freezes and defrosts well, so you can save the for those special occasions.

There you go. Chef Warren’s Pecan Pie. Make it for Christmas. He does not give a pie crust recipe, but may I highly suggest a homemade crust. It really does make all the difference and can be made ahead of time as well.  The one I use is from Ina Garten….use it for pies and quiche…AMAZING. Here’s the link to PERFECT PIE CRUST.

Thank goodness Amy has moved back to Texas and thank goodness Chef Warren shared his recipe for pecan pie.

Peace Child,

Cristi

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“Old Faithful” running strong.

If You Name Your Baby “Hamburger”, I Won’t Judge

November 19, 2012 § 5 Comments

When Amy and I were younger we weren’t allowed to have candy on any day other than Saturday. Saturdays became known, appropriately and affectionately, as “candy day”.  We’d wake up, eat breakfast (maybe), and then head straight for the lower cabinet in the kitchen which housed the sacred wooden salad bowl filled with the forbidden foods. As we lifted the bowl with both hands, we’d journey ceremoniously to the living room where we would plop down on the carpet and indulge ourselves through episodes of Smurfs, Saved by the Bell, and Alvin and the Chipmunks.

On a different note, “Candy”, itself, could have been Amy’s name. For some reason beyond me, our dad was lobbying for the name back when Amy was born.  “Amy” won out and it’s a good thing if you ask my, oh so humble, opinion.

Of course, I’m not one to talk about names. Our fourth little bundle of joy goes by the name “South”.  After three days of deliberation and no official name, the panicked birth certificate lady busted into our hospital room needing it.  We were getting ready to leave so I guess we did need to make it official. After hitting a little opposition to the potential name, we had decided to wait a couple of days to be sure. Then, my husband said it. His name would be “Christopher South.” (“Christopher” is Amy and I’s mom’s maiden name and “South” is short for South Fork, a quiet mountain town in Colorado that is our heart and soul)

He would go by his middle name. (Christopher was too normal.) It made perfect sense to us and now it was in writing.

An odd sort of  confirmation had come our way the day before the papers were signed.

I was nursing our new little guy in the corner room of the maternity wing. Random sports clips were playing on television and I was partly paying attention, partly wondering when my next pain meds were coming, and partly thinking to myself, “Can we call this baby South?” That’s when it happened…..

South Africa had recently won a big soccer game. As I glanced toward the screen, BOOM…up popped a Rastafarian soccer fan being interviewed, He was an older gentleman, in dreads, and an enormous, multicolored hat with five letters disproportionately large across the top of it. SOUTH. Not South Africa. Just simply “South”.

Was that a sign??? If I followed some sort of Rasta spiritual movement, I might think so….But I don’t.

But truthfully, I mean, who would name their baby “South”?

Uh….well….this girl.  However,  that is exactly the type of questions we got from people close to us after we announced his name. (which is tough for someone with people pleasing tendencies….hello….me)

Actually, it was more like this…

Them: “Well, I’m not calling him South.”

Me: “Okay, well that’s what he goes by.” Smile. Nod. Heart race. Question myself. Doubt myself. Doubt my husband. Google “how to change your baby’s legal name.”

I began referring to little South, not by name, but rather in more generic terms calling him simply “the baby”.  At times, I would try calling him different names to see how it felt and became borderline obsessive compulsive over the issue. Combine this with crazy hormones, chapped nipples, (yeah I said nipples) sporadic milk let down, and extreme lack of sleep, and there is an issue. And the issue was full-fledged…Baby. Namer’s. Remorse. Public places with my newborn in tow became a dreaded experience.  It was sooo not normal. I would be able to feel the tiny baby lovers approaching me, almost like a sixth sense. My blood pressure would rise as inevitably they would ask, “How old is he?” and then, “What’s his name?”

Ugh. What is wrong with me?

Over dinner one evening, with some long-time girlfriends, I was sharing my dilemma. They listened, encouraged, and then one of them so wisely stated, “I mean, come on , it’s not like you named your baby ‘Hamburger’.” Relieved, we all smiled, shrugged in agreement, I felt better, then we ordered margaritas. But here’s the deal.  What if I did name him “Hamburger”? Celebrities name their children after food all the time, and there is probably a good story behind it. People should respect that.

(Okay, “Hamburger” is a little extreme, but I won’t judge.)

In fact, I know a sweet little boy named Chili.(Yes I said Chili)…And there is a Cedar, a Ridge, and a Canyon… A Denver, a Dallas, a Houston, and a Hondo (small south Texas town). I’ve met a North, an Easton, and a West. So why not South?

I’ve since grown a little of the proverbial alligator skin and am working towards giving up on people pleasing as it’s an impossible line of work.  I now own South’s name. I love hearing my kids and family call him “Southie” (his nickname) and can’t imagine him being anything else.

I sometimes wonder if Amy would have been named “Candy”, would her life be any different???

My thought is…..no.

I’ve come to believe and stand by this mantra: “It’s not the name that makes the person but, rather, the person that makes the name.”

Can I get an amen???

Cristi

P.S.  Our other boys are named after Colorado towns as well. Creede (a small town close to Wilderness Ranch where my husband worked several summers) and Gunnison (the town where my husband went to college and where we lived when we first got married). Our daughter’s name is Adelyn (just because we liked it). So here comes the kicker. After baby number three, I find out that Ben’s great-grandfather’s middle name is….wait for it….Durango.  Well there you go. It’s genetic.

Tears. Midol. Clomid.

November 15, 2012 § 116 Comments

Warning. I will mention periods in this post. Yes, the girl kind. So if you’re a guy (ahem, my husband) and you’re reading this…….girls get periods. We talk about them sometimes. Makes the world go round.

Day 1: Tears.

Monday morning I woke up bright and chipper for work at 3:45am. BAM! My monthly friend decided to show up. I was kind of shocked because I hadn’t been acting completely wonkers in the days leading up. Normally, I’m a wreck and it’s super evident that my period is coming. Well, there she was!!! Then, it hit me…… “Dang, I’m not pregnant.” I guess I haven’t really been on my raw-organic-vegan-gluten-free diet that prepares my body for conception or seen my husband lately, so I wasn’t too surprised. Even so, the disappointment was starting to set in.

What now??? I know!!! I’ll just dress cute and comfy for work and my day will be better.

Well, my friends, sometimes what looks cute in your head will be the weirdest outfit your co-workers have ever seen. Bobby: “Hey, you headed out to the frontier later?” Lunchbox: “Where did you get that ugly sweater? You look like Harry from ‘Dumb & Dumber’ Bwaahahahaha!!”

Is it really that bad of a sweater?

Long story short………. I have to leave the room to go cry. Yes, real tears. Because of a sweater. I go into Alayna’s studio and she asks what is wrong. Me: “The guys are making fun of my sweater.” The second those words left my mouth, I knew that was cleeeeaarly my period talking…not the “real” me. Hormones have a mind of their own. As I head back to the studio, I tell myself to “pull it together and stop acting crazy.” My pep talk didn’t do much…… I finished the show as a super unpleasant version of myself. I was a straight mess. Oh, and working in radio is really awesome because days like that are on podcast. Forever. Sweet.

Day 2: Midol.

There wasn’t enough Midol to get me through Tuesday, but I survived. By the way, if you’re a woman and you don’t use Midol….You.Are.Missing.Out. Midol makes everything better. I take it even if it’s not my time of the month. When feeling especially tired…….pop some Midol with a Mountain Dew and you’ll be golden. I don’t “officially” condone this concoction, as I know it’s not healthy and I’m the queen of health. Side note: If you haven’t checked out our chocolate cake blog post……you should do that next.  Can you say HEALTHY??!!! Mmmm… I need some of that cake right now.

Anyway, our good friends had a baby on Monday, so on Tuesday afternoon my brother-in-law texts me about going to the hospital that night. While holding my friend’s baby, I realize how tiny and precious he is. I want a tiny baby. Should I make a break for it??? No. Don’t be stupid……. I’m not going to really take my friend’s baby. Thought about it though. Sorry. If these said friends happen to read this blog….. you can trust me around your kids. Promise.

As we leave the baby ward of the hospital………. I noticed all of the babies born that day. Geez. And this was just at one hospital. I tried not to get all Debbie Downer on myself, but I couldn’t help but wonder, “Seriously. Why can’t I just have a stupid baby?” Quick. Pop a Midol. Good night.

Day 3: Clomid.

Well, what do you know??? I got a call from a friend saying: “WE’RE HAVING A BABY!!!! And we weren’t even planning it!!!!!”  Yay. Losers. Just kidding. They aren’t losers. I’m happy for them… duh! They weren’t even trying!!! That’s.Just.Great.News. I know you can’t tell by reading this, but deep down I truly am excited for them. For real.

I call my sister to vent.  We both are crying and she decides to ask me about Clomid. Oh, Clomid?? You mean that bottle of pills I’ve had for….ev….er, but can’t bring myself to take??? While on the phone, I go grab the bottle and realize that I’m supposed to start Clomid on day 3 of my cycle. Ummmm… It’s day 3!!! Perfect. My sister: “Whoa. This is totally meant to be.” Me: “Okay, lets not get a head of ourselves…..this stuff might not work.”

I have reservations about Clomid because I just think that if I was meant to have a child in my belly….. it would happen on its own. I mean, Snooki has a baby……. surely my time will come, right? Clomid has me scared of conceiving multiples…not sure I could handle twins or triplets.  Annnnnnnd then there’s all THESE side effects to deal with:

Hot Flashes – Bloating & Abdominal Discomfort – Weight Gain – Mood Swings

Nausea & Dizziness – Headaches – Abnormal Bleeding – Blurred Vision

Sounds awesome, right? I also have weird thoughts that in 20 years we may find out that babies born on Clomid are aliens. This is the stuff that keeps me up at night.

At times, I think that we aren’t ever going to have biological children. It’s just not something the Lord has in store for us. Adoption, however, is something He’s been very clear about and….. lucky for us….. that’s a great way to have children!!! Perfect. We feel called to adopt no matter what. Adoption is actually another blog post in itself. Ugh. Adoption. I get why they make the process difficult, but WHY IS IT SO DIFFICULT? I have to check my fruit often when dealing with adoption: love.joy.peace.patience.kindness.goodness.gentleness.faithfulness.self-control. Repeat. Feel better.

To my future children by way of another mama…. we look forward to loving you. Caring for you. Holding you.

To my possible future children by way of Clomid that I JUST started taking… No, baby, of course mama doesn’t think you’re an alien.

To others going through anything similar to us right now… you are not alone.

Love and peace child,

Amy

Throwback Bloggage (aka:stuff you blogged a long time ago and forgot about)

November 13, 2012 § 2 Comments

Totally forgot about this! Amy and I’s initial blog a couple years back. A friend of ours asked us about this a few weeks ago and I looked at them like I had no clue what they were talking about. Clearly it was during a period of time when I had a newborn and was getting zero sleep. Its dumb. I’ll post a couple here and there so others may share in our inspiring dumbness.

First blog post ever.  Amy wrote….

Why we are “not” blogging…

My sister and I had a little “face time” meeting earlier this evening where we came up with a master plan to start a blog together… TWO SISTERS BLOGGING! However, my sister isn’t too keen on the word “blog” and she’s kind of in luck!!! After I googled how to start a blog, well, I followed the steps to start this blog.Step 1: Get a new email address for “Two Sisters Blogging.” It was available. Yay! Check.Step 2: Get a blog spot address with the new email address. Ugh! No check, as “Two Sisters Blogging” wasn’t available. What now??? I have this new email address and nothing matches! Well, I typed in “Two Sisters Not Blogging” and, sure enough, it was available! Check. Check!!!Long story short, my sister will be happy to know that we are now kind of “not” blogging… even though we actually are. I don’t know, but you follow me, right sister? Right, mom? I’m talking to you two (mom & sister) because you’re probably the only people reading this post. Maybe dad will follow and start reading and then maybe even our husbands. Oh, and then our neighbors. Maybe. My grammatical errors may scare some away. I just realized this format doesn’t give me a little jagged red line underneath words I spell wrong. I love that line… all formats should adopt the little red line because when there is no red line I think I’ve gotten all the words right and I don’t click spell check. Don’t hate.Oh, and before I sign off… I feel like posting a picture to my first blog post ever. I mean, no blog will really feel too complete without a picture. Hmmmm… not sure what to post??? Ahhhhhh, okay!! I thought of something… something my sister will appreciate – we love us some photo booth!!!!Hi sister… your turn to write something.
(then she posted this picture)
(I then, promptly replied with this)

So, are we blogging or are we not blogging???

The deal is I just don’t like the word “blog”….Kind of like how Amy doesn’t like the word “moist”…..Can’t explain it….What is a blog anyway? I mean, I know what it is because I’ve read a few….but where did they come up with that word??? Don’t worry, I’ll Google it real quick cause that’s what I do….Well, some guy apparently made up the word as he combined the two words “web log”…..I get it now…You probably already knew that mom…When I say I’ve read a few blogs, I mean three….and there is only one I read regularly…I even posted a comment once to enter in a contest to win some awesome kitchen knives….Funny thing is I actually thought they would read my comment…After an hour typing up what I believed to be an acceptable answer, I submitted it only to realize I was number 28,000 and something….Pretty much doubt they read my answer….and I didn’t win the knives….Some lady who typed a two second answer and was randomly chosen because she was number 5098 won them….So, here is my chance to be heard…I will now post my answer here for all of you (mom and sister) to read….The question was…”What are your plans this weekend?”…..

“what are your plans this weekend?” 
I have learned you can make “plans”….but whether they come to fruition or not is a whole ‘nother
thing….For instance, I am writing this with my head upside down, blow-drying my curly hair because that’s
when I check email and the such….My “plan” right now is to finish answering your question in the 15
minutes or so it takes to dry my hair with this diffuser…My “plan” was just quickly interrupted by the fact
my three year old just bumped his head on the bathroom doorknob for the second time today and I had to
pause to love on him…My “plan” now is to finish answering later….All four kids have sick visits to the
doctor…
P.S….That “plan” was delayed by the fact that while I was loading the car, I quickly noticed the baby and the
toddler’s car seats were in my husband’s car…and my husband was at work…which is not at my house….
Delay is one of the usual-suspects to thwart my “plans”…SO being that I am not going to just lay my baby
on the front seat, as apparently my mom did with me when I was an infant, we wait on dad to come
home…
Waiting is another culprit to my “plans”
Ok…its 10 a.m. Thursday….Though my “plan” was sidetracked, I am determined to finish because the
knives you offer have been on my wish list for years…I have lingered over them in the William Sonoma
catalog thinking how they would so greatly improve my cooking skills if they found a home in my
kitchen…However, my buying them is usually trumped by the fact I have kitchen “knives”…Well, that’s
what they call them and, don’t get me wrong, they would be great for people that don’t actually cook…and
I would gladly pass them along…
So, my “plans” this weekend include a possible trip to the grocery store on Friday to gather a couple of last
minute things for Christmas Eve dinner with my family….Hopefully, I will escape without a diaper explosion,
of sorts, in the grocery cart…Yes, onto my groceries….(I always have wanted one of those grocery cart
seat liners made of cute fabric….I think they are made to protect your baby from germs…I would like one
to ensure that a diaper explosion does not leak onto my groceries.)
Friday night I am “planning” on not staying up too late putting something together…and Saturday morning I
am “planning” on not be exhausted when I wake up because I “plan” on the baby having a very restful
night…Christmas day, there will be no family drama…Maybe we’ll sing Christmas carols this year…
Sunday, we “plan” on loading the car for a 15 hour drive to Colorado to visit family…That is if all the kids
are well and the pneumonia that put my 3 year old in the children’s hospital last week does not relapse….
On our drive, it is my “plan” for my husband to not get pulled over, again, or have anyone throw up in the
car…If we do get pulled over, my “plan” is for my husband to not get a ticket…He apparently has this
theory that if you are pulled over, you should roll all your windows down, turn on interior lights, turn off
your music, take off sunglasses, and place your hands on the steering wheel to avoid a citation…it also can
work in your favor if you have a screaming kid in the car…. My “plan” is for the baby to sleep soundly
though I may have to occasionally lean over him to nurse in route while he stays safely buckled in his car
seat….Has anyone else ever done that??
So basically, my plan is to make plans and then laugh when they don’t go as I planned at all…because how
boring would that be???
I totally should have won those knives…..Over and out….
(and then I posted this pic)
Don’t despair my friends. We will post more of these in the near future.

An Awkward Motion Above the Head

November 9, 2012 § 4 Comments

Basketball. There’s a ball. There’s a basket. Whether it was from the sideline, the court, the couch or the driveway,  you’ve  seen it, played it, loved it, or hated it. In my husband and I’s family,  basketball is just something that we know…something that we do. Okay, not so much me. I’m usually in the kitchen making a chocolate cake or changing a diaper or finding the first aid kit, but I do know the rules and I can hang with the best of them in a game of horse.  Our dad played college ball. Amy and I went several rounds on our hoop growing up. The hoop that stood on an aggregate driveway. The aggregate driveway that had thousands of tiny pebbles in it making your dribble awkward and rollerskating darn near impossible. (Here I end the divulgence of completely irrelevant information.) My husbands grandfather was a coach and there was always a ball at any family gathering. We enjoy the game.

This past week we drove home for a family funeral. My husband’s Uncle Doug, the eldest of four boys, passed away from complications with cancer. It was sudden.  Life is that way. Funerals are the time you rally around the loved ones left by the life lost. It’s a time you recall the best of times and even the funniest of times. Uncle Jay (number 4 in the line up and a pastor) led the services and told stories about Doug’s love of backroads, his way with words, and his faith in Christ.
Uncle Rich (number 3 in the line up and, incidentally, a basketball coach) wrote a story about his older brother. I wanted to share it, not just for the story, but more so for what happened afterward. If you know anyone with a love for the game please pass it on.
“The ‘Brother’hood of Basketball”
By former Medina, former Hallettsville, current Sonora Lady Bronco Basketball Coach
and brother to a basketball official
 
“The basketball official just signaled travel with an awkward motion above his head. I am scouting a game film late in February. If you are scouting late in February then you really should be focused, but I find myself watching the referee and not the game. There he goes again – the slightly overweight, middle aged official – is hustling beside the high school players on a fast break. I think to myself… ‘this guy thinks he is an official at the state tournament’. The video is an early tourney game in Central Texas and I have never seen an official try so hard. Again, I find myself watching the basketball official and not the game. More hustle and more calls above his head. I am all by myself in a dark room just sitting watching the game film with a huge smile on my face. Then it happens – BOOM! – the official’s face comes right in front of the screen. It is my brother. It is his first year to be a basketball official. Our dad was a high school basketball coach. We both played college basketball. We both love the sport. My smile gets bigger with every hustle play by my brother and I find myself laughing out loud with every call he signals above his head. My focus on scouting is lost. I give up on the video work and call my brother. I ask him about his mechanics and officiating. He tells me that he was making his calls “high in the air” and “so the fans could see the 
calls”. At the exact same moment in time, we realize how funny both his officiating and his comments were and we laugh. Not the regular laugh but the big belly laugh that hurts and brings tears to your eyes. That laugh will last forever in my mind….
 
Thank you to all the organizations that make basketball possible. Thank you to all the coaches, players and fans that love the game.
 
Most of all THANK YOU basketball for giving my brother some of the greatest memories and experiences of his life.
 
Rest in peace my brother….”
This story was emailed to friends, family, and acquaintances in the basketball community. It basically went viral within circles of coaches, players, and officials in the sport.  As Uncle Rich shared the story again the day of the funeral, he added that the response to the tribute he wrote for his brother was unexpected. A slew of emails, an offer for it to be published, and then this. One particular referee contacted Uncle Rich letting him know that, come Friday night, first call of the game, he was going call it high in the air, hands above the head.
Goose.Bumps.
My father in law (number 2 in the line up), then,  invited us, as a group, to raise our hands above our head and signal the call for traveling.  We all, including Uncle Doug’s wife, mother, children, and grandchildren, raised our hands high in the air and rotated our fists one over the other.  I’m sure we looked ridiculous, but it was the best kind of ridiculous. Tears welled up as I pictured officials, possibly across the state of Texas, doing the same come Friday night after the whistle blows.
May we all be more intentional to cherish the life we live and honor the lives of those we love.
Cristi

Elevators, Waves, Tumors, and Peace

October 25, 2012 § 13 Comments

As little kids we took a trip to the beach and stayed in a tall hotel with an elevator. In the spirit of things,  Dad, along with his swimsuit and flip flops, packed a blender and all the fixings for piña coladas.  Genius. He’d wake up in the mornings and go get giant halves of fresh papaya and limes and spoons. At night, we’d eat out and I remember having my first taste of calamari and finding out what it really was. Who knew squid could be so good?

During the day, I guess our parents let Amy and I wander around by ourselves. We had two elevators on our floor and we felt so grown up going up and down in our own private elevator cars.  A game was inspired by our antics. We’d  each get in our own elevator and push the button of the agreed upon floor to race to. Ready, set, go! Adrenaline rushed as my doors closed and I pushed the button. My doors opened as the winner. “Yes!” I thought to myself. I waited in front of Amy’s doors so I could humbly  rub it in her face, only her doors never opened. I waited a while. Nothing. Did she push the wrong button? She was only 4 years old. Could she even read? I don’t remember. I went back up to the floor of our room and found someone from management walking with Amy. My heart dropped. I was in trouble. Somehow she had ended up in the lobby wandering around lost. Well, there went that game…Lame.

We went to the beach. Amy walked around with her heart shaped sunglasses and Shirley temple hair. Adorable. She had a cute overbite and was probably running her motormouth non-stop. There was a trend happening in the area, at the time, with flip flops that had no straps. They just basically stuck to your feet. I have no idea how. They just did and oh how I wanted some. No luck….such a bummer. We’d play in the waves, and I practiced my gymnastics skills in the water one back handspring after another. At some point, in mid flip, a huge wave came crashing into my back. My back popped, salt water rushed up my nose, and the air was smacked out of my lungs. The feeling was panic and I crawled to shore waiting for the air to come. It finally came. Note to self: Do not flip in waves.

I was reminded of that last story in a church we visited this past week here in this small town. We sang a song about the waves of life. How sometimes they are few and far between and how other times they come one after another, knocking you down repeatedly as you wait for the air to come.  I could relate physically and emotionally to the song and to the message in it.  The waves have seemed quite repetitive the last couple years. My favorite part of the song said this…

“Though the water is raging

I will not overwhelm you

I’m preparing you for what is yet to come

And who you’ll be

Peace child

Be at peace child

There is life beneath the waves

You are not lost

I am with you

Let me wash your sins away” This past summer our mom was diagnosed with squamous cell carcinoma. Just recently, she had her follow up visit to see how the six weeks of chemo and radiation had worked on the cancer that had been growing in her body. Our mom, Amy, and some close friends drove to MD Anderson for the tests and appointments.

My heart raced as I received the phone call from mom. The day had come. The day I knew she would have some answers. After weeks of torturous side effects of radiation and chemo and weeks more of waiting, there will be answers. Did it work? Part of me did not want to know. The other part only wanted to know if the news was good. I hear my mom’s voice on the other end of the line as I sit a thousand miles away. Deep breath. I wait. She speaks. “No evidence of a tumor what so ever.”

I melt into my seat and breathe a sigh of thankfulness. I repeat the news to the kids and my husband and smiles and love erupt into cheers. I remember the prayer I overheard my son whisper the night before alone in his bed. A prayer for his “Marmie”….a prayer that the cancer would be gone.  I remember all the doctors, and radiation techs, and nurses and the chemo infusions and the late nights, the pills, the waiting rooms and the suffering mom underwent over and over and over and I sing to myself…. “Peace child

Be at peace child

There is life beneath the waves.”

Mom, Dad, Amy, Ben, and my husband’s family are coming up to Colorado for Thanksgiving. In the spirit of things, along with his beanie hat and snow boots, Dad better pack his blender and cream of coconut because we are gonna make some piña coladas up in here!

The toast will be something like… “To getting lost, to getting knocked down, to the unexpected and uncontrollable, and to resting calmly in the storms of life.”

Or maybe, to shorten things up, it will go more like…. “To elevators, waves, tumors and peace.”

Peace child,

Cristi

 
I added these pics and then remembered they were taken just a couple days before mom’s diagnosis…you never know what tomorrow holds.
***Lyrics to “Cleansing Waves” written by Denise Chaney. Pagosa Springs, Colorado.
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